When an emotion has found its thought, and the thought has found words.

May 21, 2022

About Us

The words are getting meaningless

Another day is another guilt

I am like a fool waiting for your call 
but all I hear from you is an apology

You're too busy at work 
but I am like an idiot questioning about life at 2 am
and thinking of you most of the time

I might be okay 
but I am not fine at all

I miss you 
but there's nothing else I can do but to blame the distance between us

Because it feels like you're getting further 
and further away...
from me...

May 15, 2022

First Love

First love teaches someone to love, 
and to love again
After giving up, you get up
After falling, you start growing

You didn't just experience it
You got the meaning
Even though it hurt
You realized something

He was the first
But he wasn't the last
It was just the beginning
And it would never be the ending

March 26, 2022

Reaching for You


These days
I feel like I'll leave my blue and white bubbles
Leaving my childhood memories
Leaving my best friends

These days
I feel like I'll reach for you
While you are there
You are waiting for me

These days
I look at every detail of my bedroom
Every detail is getting far now
But when I look out of the windows
Your existence is getting close now
Every cm per every second
I do believe...
We'll meet somewhere

Maybe at the supermarket?
or maybe at the hall room?
I don't know
I just imagine that we'll be interested at each other
When we talk
Then we walk together

I'll talk about how much I want to watch Hooverphonic concert with Noemie Wolfs as woman on the mic
I know, that's impossible

Then I'll say that Benedict Cumberbatch is the only man on earth who fits Sherlock Holmes role
I hope you don't deny it

If I am with you
I'll only share my happiness
Instead of my pain
Because I've left them all with the past
I'll only think about now and my future with you in it

If I am yours
At every table, I'll save you seat
And every time we're in the restaurants
I'll reserve our favorite foods
And I'll let you pay the bills, hahaha

August 17, 2021

Pagi

Di pelataran pagi
Terbentang kabar kedamaian
Darimu...
Hangat sinar matahari
Semilir angin sejuk
Merdu kicau burung-burung
Langit yang indah
Sejenak...
Aku tak ingin beranjak
Atau berjalan cepat-cepat
Hanya,
Di sini...
Tertunduk meraup kasih
Pada detik-detik
Kau taburkan
Pagi...
Hari ini...

April 18, 2021

Tanpa Belenggu

Dalam bisingnya lautan realitas
Sayup kudengar rintihan rindu

Duh, andai aku bisa membunuh angka
Angka pada jam dinding itu
Angka yang terkurung dalam diriku

Aku akan kembali ke masa kecil
Untuk merasakan sekali lagi
Betapa indahnya...hidupku tanpa belenggu

Tanpa angka yang membuatku resah
Tanpa kata yang membuatku menahan amarah

Hanya bermain
Lalu tertidur dalam pelukan dongeng ayah ibu